History

since as far as I' m allowed to look in my history,
 i despised clockfaces, as duckfaces, stupid duckfaces,
(kisses for everyone
no one actually)
i was drowned between
seconds to moments, nights to nightmares
 a sea of wine, a casket of beer, a drop of blood,
Drowned in a single drop of her blood!
across these beauties, ( I still have some of your blood on my hands,
I'll keep this souvenier, caked in my fingernails),
across these beauties, i live for eons,
and die in instances, hazy memories, room full of smoke,
moments count for days, blurry,
blurred clock, and when eons pass,
second hand moves, days are moments
I DECIDE TIME.